"Remember that time, when you used to walk under the star-lit night for hours and hours at end, and talk to me about all kind of stuff- from romance to poetry, everything. Come on let's do it again , it's a beautiful night outside", she said to me.
"Come on, you know I have so many things that I need to do, when do I have the time to walk from even one room to another. Now don't disturb me and let me focus at work in hand.", I snapped thinking that she would be quiet.
"Oh really, its all about making time for stuff you love and I know you are not the same as you used to be. You need some time off. Let's go and get us an ice cream and enjoy the late night show you love to watch so much.", she tried to convince me again.
"Oh please! I beg you, I need to complete this project by tonight and e-mail it, otherwise I will be in a pickle.", I said worriedly.
"You know , you used to be so lively. So impulsive. Always ready for some adventure. I don't even know if its still inside you or you have become a completely different person. Now all you do is think about things, without ever making them into a reality. I am fed of this attitude of yours", she said, with a tinge of anger in her voice.
"Its not that I have forgotten about things I love, I still want to walk beneath the star-lit night. I still love the midnight snack or the midnight t.v. show. I still want to read a book, but you yourself know where have I got time for all that. There is so much of work to do. So many deadlines to meet. If I don't do this stuff, I will lag behind and others will move forward. What will be my standing in this world. What will people think! I am doing this for us. So that someday we would be able to enjoy the scenes, the beauty, in the way we always wanted. Try to understand and stop nagging, please. I promise I will pay attention to all the things you are saying and try to implement change, if and where needed", I tried to explain it to her , so she would become calm.
"Since when did you start to care about the world so much", she said sadly, "you were the person who used to enjoy each moment of life. Your innocence made you beautiful. We were so happy and free. But since you have started this work of yours, you have stopped paying attention to what I want. You were a lover , a lover of all things that this world has to give. You accepted good energy. But now all you do is try to prove yourself to others. You have made me lonely. I am no more your partner in everything and neither are you mine. In short, I have become a lonely lover." and then she was gone. I couldn't bring her back to talk to me.
But then I thought, if this things have come to her, then obviously its my energy that has made her think so. Her work for me is to think for me. She is my mind. I know not, how to explain certain workings of the world, but after this conversation with my mind, I knew I have to convince her, in turn convince me. I have to make her believe in me and call her back again.
She made me think and reflect. I felt guilty as well as pity for her. The poor thing has become all alone and now I need to bring her back, somehow:
O mind, my mind,
Thou art a special work of divine,
You perplex, you trouble,
You make my worries double,
You crazy thing, you stupid,
Only to get struck by the cupid,
You suffer, I suffer,
Make me look like a duffer,
O mind, my mind,
Why don't you helped me when I am vexed,
O mind, My mind,
It seems in some ways I have been hexed,
Please stop playing your games with me,
Make me peaceful again, I pray to thee,
Why can't you go on the straight path?
Why you have to travel skies and river bath?
Help me be the joyous person I can be,
Help me, O my mind, the kind you always wanted me to be...!!!
